I found a new avatar creator: http://jeuxcool.com/jeux/plus/semi-realistic-avatar-creator/ and experimented with different facial features, hair styles, colors, etc. After I made these three I realized they are all part of my persona. I wish I could change my looks this easy, but each one is a part of how I see myself.
The top left is the rebel in me. I love the edgy look of her sassy red short hair, the studded choker, the dainty nose piercing. Yet, she's still made up with just the right touch of make-up to accentuate her eyes. I see her as a smart, no-nonsense independent woman. This is the part of me most repressed. I'm working on it.
The middle one is probably the most relatable part of me. I long for the perfectly messy, yet elegant hair. The kind of hair that looks amazing whether she tries or rolls out of bed. Her casual style is what suits me in my mind, even though I pretty much wear dresses on a daily basis. I see her as a mother, a career woman, a friend and a genuinely normal person. If you look closely, she has double pierced earrings on one ear - her way of being who she is without too much attention. She wears sweet lilac colors on her eyes to match her clothing giving a soft feel to match her personality.
The final one is the girlie-girl in me. She looks like a Princess with her flowing blonde hair, her big doe-eyed blue eyes with ruby red lips. Her gown is a steel blue to accent her eyes and there is a look of innocence in them. The details of the bow on her dress and heart earrings depict her desire to be loved and to love.
If I put these three all together, I can see me. Part rebel, part every day woman, part Princess. Ames, The Warrior Princess Mom!
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