Last night I stumbled upon a movie I never had seen before. It had already started, but I was instantly intrigued by the way the director shot the scenes. And it starred Jared Leto. The movie was "Requiem for a Dream" and it was released in 2000. After watching the movie, I was left feeling very somber, yet very grateful.
When I was a teenager from the age of 15 - 18 I had a drug addiction. Thankfully I never got into the extremely hard drugs like heroin, but I did my fair share of illegal, very addicting, life wrecking drugs. If I hadn't stopped, however, I know in my heart I'd have succumbed to the harder drugs. The movie depicts the probable consequences of drug addiction. It is ugly. It is frightening. It is so very sad. Some of us are the lucky ones who come out clean and never look back.
This movie is a must see for any person who is addictive. It doesn't just cover a heroin addict. It covers addiction to cocaine and pharmaceuticals and what lengths people go to get their drugs. Ellen Burstyn does a fantastic job of a depressed, lonely old woman addicted to her prescription drugs. What happens to her should make any Pharmaceutical company and over-prescribing Doctor ashamed.
Jennifer Connelly is amazing in her character. It is so sad to see just what she puts herself through to keep her drug addiction. It's even sadder, to me, that men use women like this to satisfy their perversity. When I had my addiction, I found myself in many shady places, with many shady people. Looking back, being so young and naïve, I put myself in a lot of danger. Again, some of us are the lucky ones who come out safe on the other side. I doubt many do.
Jared Leto plays the main character who is in love with Jennifer Connelly, but they both obviously have drug addictions. I won't go into much detail about what happens with him in the movie, other than to say he was superb, as he always is in his acting roles. I adore Jared Leto. I didn't watch him much in movies or shows when he was young, I missed out on that. I really fell in love with Jared's voice. The 30 Seconds to Mars album, "A Beautiful Lie" won me over. Jared's voice is so dynamic. He can reach high and low notes with a smoothness so out of character for that sort of music. He can scream like hell and reach so high with so much volume and intensity it gives me chills. I can get lost in his music.
Then there's his beauty. Yes, beauty. He's got one of those faces that is so perfect, so structurally beautiful, he can't be described as handsome. There isn't a ruggedness to his face. His eyes are soulful, light blue and big. His mouth is perfectly proportioned with just the perfect natural shade of pink. Even when he has full facial hair he's beautiful. He's definitely on my man-crush list.
So if you haven't watched "Requiem of a Dream", I recommend you do. Just be prepared to watch something more uplifting afterwards. Seinfeld is always a good choice.
"I'm out there Jerry, and I'm LOVIN' every minute of it! - Kramer"
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